• 01:56 If there is anything that i truly missed in Cebu, it’s definitely my freedom. #
• 17:27 @absolute0 oh i really want to believe me #
• 18:39 The irony of looking bad ass then carrying flowers. I love my batchmates. :D #

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STOP CONTROLLING MY LIFE YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MEAN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1. I’ve come to realize that my butt: is sexy, so as some male species say. But I don’t quite agree
2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk: I am too loud that I make the next person deaf.
3. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone: I give it everything, unto the point I get almost nothing.
4. I’ve come to realize that I need: to stop being hard on myself and enjoy life.
5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost: my purpose in being alive.
6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when: I feel alone when I shouldn’t even be alone.
7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk: either I’m so sleepy or I announce to the world I’m naked and think lighted phone buttons == having new message
8. I’ve come to realize that money: is a necessity. I WANT IT. Because I have so many luhos
9. I’ve come to realize that my mother: will never understand me, but I still respect her.
10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll probably always be: a hopeless emo romantic
11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on: ….
12. I’ve come to realize that the last time I cried was: when all the frustrations of life started kicking in and I cannot take the pressure anymore.
13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone: is in need of a dire replacement. Sony Ericsson FTW
14. I’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: I want to go back to sleep.
15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I have to download or do something to the laptop, like update plurk or play Diablo II or just listen to my iTunes playlist
16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about: getting transparent shoeboxes for my shoes, my upcoming birthday *ugh, and a better dinner at chili’s :)
17. I’ve come to realize that babies: are a handful, and I don’t want one. (yet?)
18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on LiveJournal/Multiply: I like reading posts from old friends :)
19. I’ve come to realize that today I will: have to be better than tomorrow.
20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will: go home early, if the rain didn’t show up.
21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will: think of where to go after work.
22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to: be free and move out of the house.
23. I’ve come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: I don’t know… some reader at my blog?
24. I’ve come to realize relationships: there is no the “one”. You have to really make it work with someone.
25. I’ve come to realize love: is probably the best and worst thing that can happen to a person
26. I’ve come to realize my best guy friend: was able to text me anytime i feel like ranting, we share talks over drinks and potato chips and would call me if he needs someone
27. I’ve come to realize my best girl friend/s: are crazy, but loves them anyway.
28. I’ve come to realize food: is better than sex…if there is no sex.
29. I’ve come to realize that when I’m a girlfriend: I’m a romantic, and my logical self almost melts away.
30. I’ve come to realize girls and boys: should be able to grow up from being emo and see how pretty life can be without the slicing of wrists involved. :)
31. I’ve come to realize over the summer: that I want to travel to more beaches and places with snow.
32. I’ve come to realize heartbreak: is necessary for growth, but wishes not to have such anymore after experiencing 5.

When there was no internet at the office, I sidelined writing on a worn out .doc until the network’s up…here was my thoughts during the past few days. It was ugly, but it would work.

While the rain poured yet again on the floor to ceiling windows of our new office and Passing Afternoon is playing on my Ipod, I got back from a very wet trip from greenbelt to spend lunch with a new found friend.

I was running across the windswept rainy streets with my umbrella, and both of us are putting up a good fight. My checked pants have just sported a new shade of brown and my phone was soaked. We braved together and I took shelter at RCBC plaza while getting myself together.

I wanted to wait at MSE until the rain quiets down, but I thought better and took the jeep and ended up along the Buendia-Ayala intersection.

When my nerves were almost over, I ran again to the jeepney stop and I gratefully got in, reliving the meaning of “soaked to the bone” as I waited for the Makati Avenue stop.

And I got back to the office looking like a drowned rat. But never the less, I felt better when I changed into worn army green pants, and I should get myself a cup of coffee.

Iron and Wine was softly crooning my warming heart. This was a very memorable song for some, as it was the last song played on the last episode of the 4^th season of House.

I wouldn’t want to spoil the ending, but most viewers probably shed a tear or two, or bawled like a baby just like I did. I was a sucker for romantic endings, good or bad.

It was a reminder for all. That we never know how long life really has for us until we are served and knowing we only have such a short span of time left, and there is no turning back.

People who are standing close to the end suddenly turn into saints, daredevils, or maybe both. Why wait until it’s too late before we do anything that we always wanted? Never stop dreaming you can do the impossible, this crazy madness keeps us alive in this cruel world that seemed to stop believing in these so-called petty dreams.

And why do people always tell what matters most when one hangs on the brink of existence? Either they’re too scared or too afraid or too lazy or too busy to make do because they always say, we have a whole lifetime to say it, we have until the end of their time.

Not knowing that time was already creeping up and stealing away every precious second.

Never forget to tell a person how much you love them. Always try and find ways to make them smile, these are the very simple reasons people leave, because they don’t get enough affection from the people who seems to be too busy to care. Never wait for people to disappear before you realize that the best thing in your life went away and will never be back.

Everybody wants to feel wanted. Nobody wants to be neglected in a corner while the world brushes pass them like a blur. These people have made mistakes and want to change and be given a chance to start over and to be loved as who they really are. Nobody wants to be unrecognized, these are the hundreds of people who try and sought attention from something or someone else because there is this emptying void that cannot be filled deep in the darkest corner of their hearts.

At the end of the day, from the long hours of work or school or whatever, we all want to go home to some peace, a nice drink, a warm hug, a simply prepared dinner and someone who cares enough to ask how the day went, while you laugh at the funny parts and cry when you failed. They will never shun you away. Never take it against you when you’re pissy.

We all want a real family, whom you can turn to and never have to let you decide between their principles and your own, and respect each other through and through.

We are never meant to live alone. But many choose to do so because they don’t ever want to feel lonely again. Alone is so much better. We don’t have to get hurt by words and be left behind when we feel lost. We fight our own battles, we bring up ourselves. It’s such a deep and sad wound that bleeds profusely that we feel that we cannot rely on anyone and we had to resort to such desolate solitude, forgetting all the pain of people that leaves you in such a broken state and without a care as long as they get their share of happiness.

Time and again I would sit alone at my now-favorite place. Smiling as I press the glass mug to my lips or the stick of cigarette to inhale, I wonder, am I already turning into that person who wants to be alone? It was those times where I don’t feel any remorse or sadness. I maybe alone, but I am not crying, where I’m beginning to feel wanted on my own, that I do not have to be judged by anyone, where I can be quiet and just be at peace.

I wish not to be alone. But it seems that I will have no choice later on.

• 13:29 Now i know what it means to be "soaked to the bone" :D #

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• 08:16 The weather at manila is fantastic. Gray, windy, cold and raining. I’m stranded at kopiroti basking in all the craziness ü w00t! #

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• 11:23 I finished half my OM, went to have milk tea #
• 11:23 are you on plurk? join my timeline –> tinyurl.com/6p285k #
• 13:35 @achieabs gaya gaya :P #
• 14:17 hahaha #
• 16:59 me too! i want a star so click on my plurk invite yipee #
• 18:06 @vetz bragging rights! and more smilies #

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• 17:28 i am still having a cold. i want orange juice #
• 18:08 @achiabs baka mahawa ka #

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• 13:29 I hate having colds #

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• 16:34 sky looks nasty in manila, and i have a cold… #

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